afraid of change

I used to love the person i was.

I liked how i acted and my personality and how i wasn't like anybody else and didn't care about what people thought of me, i was just happy being myself.

I was the kind of person who liked everything and everyone, who was amazed and amused by so much and was said to "always have a smile on my face."

My friends were not the type of people i would like to associate with now, they were nothing like me..but this didn't bother me in the slightest. Now i find it extremely hard to enjoy the company of people i meet, now it is as if i am looking for a certain type of person who understands everthing about me and will help me learn more about myself.

The person i used to be wasn't phased when being called wierd, she would just shrug it off and any thoughts about that comment would just disappear into oblivion. I liked that :)

Now every little bad thought will stick with me and turn me into that someone i don't want to be.