about a boy,

nina

dislikes butter.

.... hot weather.

.... being alone.

.... bad hugs.

.... work.

.... being confused.

.... travelling.

.... being far away.

.... being misunderstood.

.... broken promises.

.... heart ache.

.... phone calls to people who are busy.

.... not being able to drive.

.... drunken mistakes.

likes conversations.

.... friends.

.... movies.

.... cuteness.

.... hugs.

.... quotes.

.... drunken craziness.

.... parties.

.... music.

.... English.

.... fantasies.

.... concerts.

.... amazing tees.

.... English accents.

.... photographs.

.... memories.

.... harry potter

.... vans/chucks

.... spontaneity

.... night time

.... love weather

“I know that you believe you understand what you think I said, but I'm not sure you realize that what you heard is not what I meant.”

England. I love you!

can i collect you?

Donnie Darko. 28 Days later. Big Fat Liar.Wristcutters: a love story. [Rec]. Dying Breed. Steal me. My blueberry nights. S Darko. Disco Pigs. Mean girls. Cloverfield.Freaky Friday. Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind. 50 first dates. Suddenly 30. The devil wears prada. Juno. Ghost world. Pretty in pink. Overboard. The Corpse bride. Harry Potter and the philosopher's stone. The sixth sense. Edward scissorhands. Take the lead. The mummy. The longest yard. Tarzan. Pleasantville. Just friends. 1408. Spanglish. Superbad. Spy kids. Legally blond 2. Click. The interview with the vampire. The skeleton key. The grudge 2. The butterfly effect.Thunderstruck. Shallow hal. Harry potter and the order of the phoenix. Save the last dance. Scooby doo. Stuck on you. 2. Factory girl. Anger management. Poseidon. They. Sixteen Candles.The notebook. The dark knight. The benchwarmers. Hannible rising. Van helsing. Alot like love. Just like heaven. The other Boleyn girl. 21. Across the universe. Almost famous. One perfect day. The descent. The prestige. I robot. Rules of attraction. Twilight. The illusionist. Sydney white. Igby goes down. The orphanage. Fight club. American beauty. Billy Elliot. Trainspotting. Life as a house. Pulp fiction. The others. Taken. The wedding singer. Requiem for a dream. ....

fingers to a keyboard

sometimes i don't know how i feel. like right now. why am i here? what am i doing? what is the matter with me?

things that i have been waiting for might possibly be in my grasp. i'm trying, i am.

my thoughts left alone with myself only makes it worse..it's not even real. why do i care?

i feel like "these" things i one day hope to cherish will work out fine..but what if they don't? i don't want this false hope. it's too hard. it's too confusing. it's too complicated.

just give this to me, this one time.

-sitting on the chair that was once possessed in my mind.

company. hugs. photographs. things in common. films. concerts. cuteness. holding hands. beautiful moments. meaningful conversations. sweet promises. tee shirts. spontaneity. phone calls. tingling feelings. songs. love weather. night time. individuality. memories. ..to be continued!

ache

i don't want to hide it any longer..it's starting to appear!

i want to take control of a moment and set this ache free, a wonderful moment i wouldn't let myself forget.

it's agony but i know it's for the best, to keep everything the same and not change it for the worst.

This way, it's better for everyone.

feelings that engulf me

I don't like these feelings.. they make me feel happy and distracted from misery but also what is important. They take over my senses and the decisions i make, most of them mistakes. I'm hoping they will disappear, but i will yearn for their presence when they are gone. They are wrong and i know it but cannot help it, they make me see this situation through pessimistic eyes. I want something new to come along therefore helping them fade from my mind.

afraid of change

I used to love the person i was.

I liked how i acted and my personality and how i wasn't like anybody else and didn't care about what people thought of me, i was just happy being myself.

I was the kind of person who liked everything and everyone, who was amazed and amused by so much and was said to "always have a smile on my face."

My friends were not the type of people i would like to associate with now, they were nothing like me..but this didn't bother me in the slightest. Now i find it extremely hard to enjoy the company of people i meet, now it is as if i am looking for a certain type of person who understands everthing about me and will help me learn more about myself.

The person i used to be wasn't phased when being called wierd, she would just shrug it off and any thoughts about that comment would just disappear into oblivion. I liked that :)

Now every little bad thought will stick with me and turn me into that someone i don't want to be.